Do you ever feel like you are just a lost little kid pretending to be an adult?
As I'm sitting here messing around with grown up business things, I can't help but think my cousin and I played this game when we were little. We used to play office, house, restaurant, and things like that all the time. We never got paid for it - except maybe a quarter we swindled out of family for our theater performances.
I remember thinking - scratch that -make that knowing I was going to be a doctor when I grew up. I still have those thoughts like I should have gone through with it. Maybe I made the mistake of working as a nurse's aid before being a doctor. I saw how the doctors acted toward patients behind their backs - being tired and burnt out and, let's face it, a little snobby. I also saw them being on call whether they liked it or not - if they had a patient in the hospital - they were called at 3 AM for something as little as tylenol and I suddenly didn't want it anymore. Yet there's still such a nagging in me whenever I go to a hospital and walk by any medical staff - including maintenance - it just feels like home.
Even though I know I would enjoy some elements of the job, I know I wouldn't be happy with being a nurse. Nurses deserve a lot of acknowledgement. Yes, they all have their snotty moments, but dear god, the things they have to see and do (nursing assistants and paramedics have it even worse!). So, as long as they do their job well - I don't care if they don't say hello to me in a happy sing song voice everytime I encounter them.
I had the chance to keep working in the medical field - all the way up to being a doctor. I had so many things come in to hinder my progress. But I have to ask myself, if I truly wanted it - deep down - would I have allowed anything to come between me and that dream?
So now here I sit. Creating a business from scratch. Carving out a niche for myself and, of course, I'm scared I won't be successful, but I believe in it and I'm moving forward!
This is why I hate it when people ask kids what they want to be when they grow up. I do it too because it's so cute to hear and you want to know what their brains are thinkin. But when I was little - I always felt pressure everytime I told someone. And now I realize, dreams change and that's okay!
I definitely do envy those people who know what they want from an early age and have a one track mind of getting there.
I had a dream of owning my own business as well, but it was always something cute like a flower shop or little corner store or a coffee shop.
As I'm sitting here messing around with grown up business things, I can't help but think my cousin and I played this game when we were little. We used to play office, house, restaurant, and things like that all the time. We never got paid for it - except maybe a quarter we swindled out of family for our theater performances.
I remember thinking - scratch that -make that knowing I was going to be a doctor when I grew up. I still have those thoughts like I should have gone through with it. Maybe I made the mistake of working as a nurse's aid before being a doctor. I saw how the doctors acted toward patients behind their backs - being tired and burnt out and, let's face it, a little snobby. I also saw them being on call whether they liked it or not - if they had a patient in the hospital - they were called at 3 AM for something as little as tylenol and I suddenly didn't want it anymore. Yet there's still such a nagging in me whenever I go to a hospital and walk by any medical staff - including maintenance - it just feels like home.
Even though I know I would enjoy some elements of the job, I know I wouldn't be happy with being a nurse. Nurses deserve a lot of acknowledgement. Yes, they all have their snotty moments, but dear god, the things they have to see and do (nursing assistants and paramedics have it even worse!). So, as long as they do their job well - I don't care if they don't say hello to me in a happy sing song voice everytime I encounter them.
I had the chance to keep working in the medical field - all the way up to being a doctor. I had so many things come in to hinder my progress. But I have to ask myself, if I truly wanted it - deep down - would I have allowed anything to come between me and that dream?
So now here I sit. Creating a business from scratch. Carving out a niche for myself and, of course, I'm scared I won't be successful, but I believe in it and I'm moving forward!
This is why I hate it when people ask kids what they want to be when they grow up. I do it too because it's so cute to hear and you want to know what their brains are thinkin. But when I was little - I always felt pressure everytime I told someone. And now I realize, dreams change and that's okay!
I definitely do envy those people who know what they want from an early age and have a one track mind of getting there.
I had a dream of owning my own business as well, but it was always something cute like a flower shop or little corner store or a coffee shop.
Who knew I'd make a business out of encouraging people like me. This website will be more than saying 'hey, good job!' - it's something slightly different. I can't wait to show you! I can't wait for people to praise the site as well as rip it apart! I can't wait for the debate and opinions - both good and bad. It should be a blast! :-D
Love and Gratitude,
Erica Nicole
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