For the past few days I feel like the most productive thing I've done is create this blog. I am in such a funk!
But I wanted to write a quick note about the blahs. It is so overwhelming sometimes to keep up with everyday stuff and still keep my eyes on the prize. It's pretty draining.
My biggest struggle is finding some sort of peace and balance with everything. Nothing will ever be perfect, but there are a few things I'd like to get done before some major work begins. One is organizing our bedroom closet.
I have already organized the rest of the house except the bedroom closet and the office. My way of organizing every other room was putting exactly what I wanted in that room and then shoving the rest of the junk in the office so I could go through it all in one place and pack it up for yardsale and donation.
I was watching Hoarders last night and thought 'Oh god - I need to jump on that office situation NOW!'
The reason the organization is important to me is that I want our home to run as seamlessly as possible so I feel like I can get through the household chores quickly - putting things in their place and cleaning up. And then I am free to concentrate on my dreams.
In doing this, maybe I'm just putting my dreams on the backburner and procrastinating them away. But a good friend of mine said that it is probably my way of preparing myself and getting my thoughts in order and that I'm giving myself a tangible goal while I work the big one out and think of where to begin with it all. Whether that's true or not - I like it so I will go with it ha ha.
I do think procrastination has some benefits. If you're struggling with doing something it is either a very unsavory task OR if it's something you want to do, but you're finding excuses not to - or are 'too tired' - perhaps - you are not in the right place to take this thing on at this moment or it is just not time for that task at that moment - the universe is not ready for it - or it's not ready for the sub par version you are going to produce if you do a half assed job. Maybe when we feel we are procrastinating on something too much - we should take a step back and figure out why.
Well...time to take my own advice..
As I sit here thinking on it...my issue with getting things done today is that I feel I'm being pulled in a billion different directions. In all honesty, I'm the only one pulling. I want to get so many things done at once - it's time to break them down into small goals. Small goals work because they are attainable and they are mini triumphs to get back on the track of success. Remembering what victory feels like can change gameplay.
Writing lists and actually checking items off is an example of a bunch of small goals that you write 'CONQUERED' all over the face of.
Not only am I in the middle of organizing our home, I'm trying to decorate it, keep it clean, trying to do work with a hot laptop on my lap and papers scattered over the living room since the office is out of order at the moment, trying to get a beauty and workout routine down, taking care of our family and many other little random things. My load may not seem like much to others and in comparison - I usually think I have it quite easy. But everyone gets stressed by their own picture they have in their head of what it all should be and what you are afraid everyone actually sees.
For me, I think my perscription for the day is: making myself look and feel presentable, writing a shopping list for the closet organization, actually going shopping this time and not getting sidetracked, and then finishing the closet tonight. One small step for me - one giant leap for my psyche.
Love and Gratitude,
Erica Nicole
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